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She expected the world,
but it flew away from her reach

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Best thing about Easter is these! #myself

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I feel so dead today, and caffeine is making me look high! #selfie #myself

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Taken in a local cemetery, Norfolk

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Taken by me: Sunset, Norfolk

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#selfie #myself

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Morning world #tired #myself #selfie

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6:03 pm • 19 January 2013

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So, time for an update! Sorry I look so terrible, I’m not at uni at the moment because I’ve been unwell and I just put some make up on to try and make myself look marginally presentable/feel better. My self esteem is pretty low at the moment, my depression has been quite bad and my anxiety has been through the roof. I had my first major panic attack last night, which embarrassingly, made me actually wet myself (it was that severe). It’s 4am here in England at the moment, which some of you might think an odd time to be up, but I’ve been asleep since my panic attack mostly. I had some sleeping tablets last night and got a lot of rest. I’ve missed 2 exams so far and I don’t think I’ll be going to todays because it will make me worse, so my plan is to forget about this dip and focus on the future. I should be able to resit them uncapped during the summer, since I have a reason for not taking them.
Time to online shop/order books for next semester/organise myself, I’ve gained a massive amount of weight and I’m feeling really down on myself. NOT GOOD. I need to make myself better for the start of next semester, because I need a fresh start.

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Got caffeine?! #revision #grrr #myself

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I’m crying, this is me when I was little…

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Me getting involved in the politics of the uni hah

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